Sunday, August 29, 2010

Anxiety... and the Aftermath

Still related to my two latest post. I know that he has a girlfriend. Even since I know him, from the very start. But why the feelings keep growing? Why the feeling still lingers after such hardships? I don't know. And I don;t know what miracles pushed me to confess to him, which I did. And it's in such a weird way, too. I thought I'll laugh when I remember that scene in the future, but unfortunately, no. Just by me confessing, a whole load of problems sprung right in front my face. And it goes for a whole week, draining my spirit and MP(as gamers say...). At least its now over and we're walking through our days as a couple. It's kinda weird, and a fleeting emotion starts to fill my heart since it's my first boyfriend, or something like that? Our relationship seems comical and I dare say, weird too (LOL) at least according to other people. Yea, we're still on the first level. Even maybe we're still in the zero level, same as nothing. But it's okay. I won't rush him, and I know he's now on his senior level and next year he'll go to univ. So it means a hell lot of tasks, lessons, studies, tests etc etc. Yes he asked me before about this, and I said I understand. So here I am, waiting for someone. Ah no, it should be waiting for him to come back :) Maybe you who read this will go 'WTF if you're in 'lovelove' mode go find some room!' or something like dat. I can't help it, so sorry for ruining your eyes, guys. I'll find something to share later, and it's probably about onemanga being closed or something like that. Hope you enjoy your day, and ja ne!

if you read this, this is for you Ryuusei <3